Well Im at a pretty low point in life right now. My struggle with Pure O OCD

[mikeb]

The first step toward recovery is admitting that something is wrong. You have done that.

Seriously, seek some help from a therapist - a good therapist can help you work through what is happening and can steer you toward any other resources that you may need going forward.

Seeking help from a therapist is no disgrace; it simply means that you care about yourself and your family enough to get the help you need. Hell, i've seen a therapist for stuff that was going on in my life and my therapist helped me sort shit out and get back on the path.

And finally, this is a dysfunctional family here but when the shit is hitting the fan for someone you can count on the members gathering around and helping. No one is going to give you a hard time about this.

[Gasser64]

I hate to ask, but can you go into further detail about what exactly you're experiencing? Are these just thoughts that pop into your head? Or is it more like images you're seeing that, you don't seem to have any control over?

[Cooter]

I hate to ask, but can you go into further detail about what exactly you're experiencing? Are these just thoughts that pop into your head? Or is it more like images you're seeing that, you don't seem to have any control over?

for ME, it was just a momentary vision I would have in my mind... a split-second thought.

one BIG one that I used to have quite often was I'd be rolling down the highway, haul-assing to my next big important thing, and I'd get a vision in my mind of my yanking the wheel and driving straight off the highway!!

it would make me sad because I'm not suicidal...

and the stuff like the image of me blowing my dog's head off... if you knew how much I loved my dog, you would know how deeply troubling that would be...

well... since that day, I've been going on a lot more walks with him, and I've just been showing my little buddy as much love as possible... things have been GREAT, and I'm wondering if that little flash was telling me what I was DOING to my dog in a drawn out sort of way, so my soul was telling me I needed to do the OPPOSITE!!!!!

oh, and ever since I kinda slowed down and quit worrying about rushing around trying to "hustle" and "make it happen"? (and don't get me wrong, we're talking... a few days ago? LOL) I have a feeling that I won't be having that off the road image pop into my head.

But if I do, maybe I'll think... hmm... I think I'm maybe going too fast or headed in the wrong direction. Time to reach out to a friend or family member and just say hi... I'll get the guidance I'm looking for either from the next friend I talk to or the next or the next. I'll hear something in our conversation that will answer my question. And my friend won't know it. But he will have saved my life with that answer. Of course, you'll be in their debt forever for them saving your life, but what a wonderful debt to be in and to try to pay back



So, Stephen? Maybe these images have just been your soul telling you that you need to reach out and communicate with your loved ones and just tell them all of your concerns and thoughts...

hmm... sound familiar? Dude, you're so on the path right now, you have NO idea!!!!!

You folks just stick with it. Don't focus on the medication. Work with your docs on meds, but DO NOT think for ONE FUCKING SECOND that you need them. They're just a turbocharged little set of training wheels to kinda help you keep the images at bay because they've become a LITTLE too large for you to deal with...

every drug on earth has it's place or they wouldn't be here with us!

but remember, they're just training wheels...

you're going to be working with and sharing with and growing together with your family, and when you all are as close as you can be (and this isn't going to take you folks long... there's a lot of love between you obviously, or you wouldn't have carried this secret for SO long)

so, when you all are as close as can be and you're feeling just lots of love between you? Tell your therapist and your doctors that you want to start pulling back on the meds and see how things are.

I've got a funny little feeling that before the end of 2015, you and your family will be leading a completely different life. And if you just write down your thoughts/fears/concerns when/if those flashes pop up, then just put them away, you can go right back to doing whatever it is you and the fam are doing.

And then you can talk with your therapist about what you've written, but you won't have to CARRY all those thoughts around in your head. You can just carry them in a little notebook!

This is not the life sentence you've been thinking it is... this problem isn't a lifetime of pain and suffering... this is the pain and fire that's been inside you, but now that you're talking with your friends and family? buddy... you're about to experience a whole different kind of life sentence

TRY IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Cooter]

Oh, and Stephen?

I don't know if you're a man like I was who was afraid to cry whenever it hit me lest I look like less of a man...

I recently found out, it was the holding onto those tears that made me less of a man.

The loved ones that you have called on to help heal your spirit (and in-turn, all of theirs! ) will not judge you for crying.

I have learned that crying is nothing but love... that's all it is and all it will ever be. And when you have a lot of tears, it's because you have a lot of love trying to come out.

Just let them flow and realize that it's just the love for your family that you've been holding down for so long because it's so strong that you were afraid that you were going to hurt somebody with it.

Love is a powerful thing... And you can hurt somebody with it if you're not careful. But it sounds like you've been VERY careful and VERY protective of it.

There's NOTHING wrong with being protective of love! But you're home now... you've called on the right people to help you. Your loved ones!

So let that love flow, brother, and it'll slow down to a normal pace VERY soon!!!

Nothing but love to YOU and everybody you know and love!!!

Forrest

[Gasser64]

If his are anything like yours, imo most people have that. Hell its on TV pretty much non-stop, and what are TV shows but the inner thoughts of the writers. Well the good ones anyway. You always see someone having some kind of flash where they do something they'd never do, and then they snap out of it and the people around them either didn't notice, or are looking at them wondering why they aren't paying attention.

I'm just citing that as an example of something that happens so often, that it appears in one of our main medias, pretty much constantly. Personally I just live with it. I know I'd never chop my dog's head off. Or just run over a kid that's in my way in the road. But still at this point, I'm not convinced that's the type of thing he's talking about. Cause I'm pretty sure every human being who ever lived has those kind of thoughts from time to time.