A buddy killed himself tonight.

[kobuzz]

Been a year and a few months ago that my good friend Mickey ended his life. It's something I still have a hard time accepting that he is gone but I understand why he did it. I try to think of all the good times we had but still feel the guilt of wondering if there was something I could have/should have done. I try not to think of the final act but of the years of good times I was able to share with him. Doesn't make it any easier though. I'm sorry for your loss and I wish I could say it will get easier with time but I still haven't got to that point yet. RIP to Mickey and your friend.

[talisman]

Really sorry to hear that man.

[soap]

That's awful sorry. RIP

[4bangen]

That sucks. I remember when I found out that my high school theater teacher hung himself. he was probably the most influential non-family member in my teen years.
I was about 27 when I found out. I was numb to it at first but a few months later in the middle of the night I woke up fighting mad, and to this day it tugs at me. If any of you ass holes ever feel down fucken call someone, phone a G-D friend! Christ you always have at least one, even if you don't think you do. PM me if no one else, I can't think of anyone I've ever met on here I wouldn't break bread with. well as long as you don't rape children that is.

[Country cracker]

If any of you ass holes ever feel down fucken call someone, phone a G-D friend! Christ you always have at least one, even if you don't think you do. PM me if no one else, I can't think of anyone I've ever met on here I wouldn't break bread with. well as long as you don't rape children that is.

^^^ this

OP I'm very sorry for your loss

[Sean88gt]

Horrible, helpless feeling. Sorry you're having to deal with it all.

[jdgregory84]

First of all, I'm sorry to hear that, only because it caused you pain.

Secondly, my step brother overdosed and died when I was seventeen.

Now...third...you forget about that selfish asshole and you seek out his friends and loved ones and give your condolences to them and help them out however you can. There's no excuse for suicide. No matter where you are in life, there is somebody out there worse off than you.

I obviously have no sympathy for pussies that take the easy way out. My dads friend commited suicide a while back and after talking to my pops and him helping that guys family...it's just too selfish for me to gather sympathy for the "victim."

[kobuzz]

I obviously have no sympathy for pussies that take the easy way out.

Over the years I have lost 3 friends to suicide. The first one blew his brains out right in front of a few of us at a friends party and the second was two weeks later due to him feeling guilt about the night of the party the suicide happened. Over the years I thought both of them were selfish and I was angry for their actions.

My friend Mickey, although I wish he hadn't done it. I completely understand. Years of dipping snuff in his early years gave him mouth and neck cancer. After 2 major surgeries to try and stop it including removing half his tounge he found out that the cancer had spread to his bones and he was in pretty bad pain and was getting worse by the week. I can't say I wouldn't have done the same thing if it were me. Watching him suffer was bad enough I can't imagine having to go through it. Yea, he put alot of us through emotional pain but this time I don't feel it was selfish and I'm not angry. Just miss a good friend.

Sorry for your loss OP and to all who knew him.

[Cooter]

First of all, I'm sorry to hear that, only because it caused you pain.

Secondly, my step brother overdosed and died when I was seventeen.

Now...third...you forget about that selfish asshole and you seek out his friends and loved ones and give your condolences to them and help them out however you can. There's no excuse for suicide. No matter where you are in life, there is somebody out there worse off than you.

I obviously have no sympathy for pussies that take the easy way out. My dads friend commited suicide a while back and after talking to my pops and him helping that guys family...it's just too selfish for me to gather sympathy for the "victim."

way to make it all about you

[talisman]

Suicide is very misunderstood. Anyone thinking it is "easy" needs to have a 180 degree view correction. As for being selfish, how selfish is it for everyone else saying that the person who died should have stuck around for THEIR sake. That isn't the very definition of selfish? lol Anyway, I don't want to hijack this, but that just really bugs the hell out of me. It isn't always about needing someone to talk to or someone else being worse off. We are all the centers of our own universes.

[Mychael101]

First of all, I'm sorry to hear that, only because it caused you pain.

Secondly, my step brother overdosed and died when I was seventeen.

Now...third...you forget about that selfish asshole and you seek out his friends and loved ones and give your condolences to them and help them out however you can. There's no excuse for suicide. No matter where you are in life, there is somebody out there worse off than you.

I obviously have no sympathy for pussies that take the easy way out. My dads friend commited suicide a while back and after talking to my pops and him helping that guys family...it's just too selfish for me to gather sympathy for the "victim."

Check out Martin Manley's site. He literally built a website to blog about his own suicide. He even trolled people after his death into searching for valuables at GPS coordinates he provided. It's worth noting that while he wasn't able to answer everyone's questions on why, he did provide a lot of insight into his reasoning.

[JP135]

OP I'm sorry for the loss of your friend. The people left behind always wonder if they could've done something, but in the end its a decision one person made and acted on. I've been in the spot where you are now.

Holler if you need to, man.

[JP135]

Check out Martin Manley's site. He literally built a website to blog about his own suicide.

I've got some reading to do. Not trying to hijack the thread. Apologies to the OP.

http://martinmanley.org

[SS Junk]

I obviously have no sympathy for pussies that take the easy way out.

Great time to get on your soapbox, asshole.

[GT Fanatic]

I can imagine being 60 and the winter holidays dragging you way down. You've watched a lot of your loved ones die. Missing the hell outta of them and little to live for.

Sorry for your loss. Love the P.S. remark.