I'm struggling today..

[ThreeFingerPete]

Steve, call me if you want to talk.

[Blackpony]

Sorry to hear man. Keep your head up, things will get better every day. I can relate a little, but with my dad rather then mom. Never had a good relationship with him, he only go to see my daughter a hand full of times, then one day got that phone call.. I sometimes have my moments where I really miss my dad but i just remember the good times that we had. Also had my father in law pass couple years ago. really makes it hard with having a little one, but just stay strong and give me a call if you need someone to talk to in person.

[onemeangixxer7502]

Sorry man thats a bummer. Sorry for your loss

[Cooter]

Steve, despite all the BS we all talk on this site, you're a good guy. Don't feel guilty about your thoughts/feelings/actions. This life is a crazy little ride. There's no road map. If you need to bounce anything off of me in PM's, please feel free.

[46Tbird]

I'm terribly sorry to hear that man. RIP

[War Machine]

Yea sorry to hear about that, thats a terrible thing.

[cobrajet69]

I'm struggling today. I'm not sure how or what I should be doing/feeling about it. Hell, I'm not even sure why I'm telling you guys this shit because I know you guys don't care. I'll most likely probably delete this before long so it doesn't get derailed.

My mother died yesterday morning.


Now, I sit here with conflict, confusion or I dunno what else. I haven't spoken to her in many years. I'm trying to remember the good times and it all seems to be a haze because there was so little of it. I didn't exactly win the lottery when it came to parent selection. I know I made the right personal choice seperating myself from a toxic enviorment and not exposing my wife/daughter to it all.

I'm finding myself caught surprisingly off guard with this pain and not sure what to do with it. I was numb to it yesterday when my brother called me, but it's been constantly on my mind since and not sure how to deal with it.

It's one thing after another lately.

Fuck.

Very sad Steve.
Prayers for you and your mom bro.


David

[Hay Burner]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[mikec]

Sorry to hear it Steve. You have the number if you need a shoulder.

[Sleeper]

That sucks that your mom passed. That's life, always gotta die sometime.

[stangin4lyfe]

Very sorry to hear, my prayers are with you and your family!

[centexchick]

Hang in there, you did what you felt was right for your family...I am sorry that your mom passed...

[juiceweezl]

Sorry for your loss, Steve, albeit a loss that occurred some time ago it seems. We make our choices in life, cut our ties, and it is still difficult to deal with the situation when it comes back around. Prayers for you and your family through it all.

[stinginstang]

My mom died earlier this month. Mom's are dropping like flies I guess. She was a good mom and I tried to be a good son. I think we can always look back and think we could have been a better father, son, brother, etc... When my father passes, I will feel more like Steve does now.

[petyweestraw]

Well. Its gonna hurt. It was ur mom. At one point in ur life you did love her. You was close to her. Those feelings may get buried at some point but they never go away. Regret. Guilt. Yeah they suck too and will pick at ya like crazy in this kinda thing. But like you said. Wasn't healthy for you and yours. It wasn't your fault you wasn't close. You made the decision to leave yes but ultimately she was at fault for your bad relationship. I'm close to my mom and can't even begin to deal with that loss. Don't know how ill deal. I thought I hated my grandma and then she passed . I cried hard over it. I can't explain why . I don't know. My rambling may not help you feel better. Just sharing I guess. My sympathies to you and yours

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