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Married - and now divorcing.
So, I made it a whole 1 year and 2 weeks (woohoo) since we got married. I've been with this girl for a little over 5 years, living together 4.5 of those. Couple of months ago she goes to the doctor, mentions issues with anxiety, they prescribe Cymbalta to her, and the issues began. All of a sudden she is un-happy... wants time alone, I dont do this, I don't do that, etc. I try to reason, explain I'd change whatever I am lacking in to make her happy, offered to go to marriage counseling, etc. She refused counseling, refuses to get off the Cymbalta, refuses to stay around and work on our issues. I make changes anyway (get off work at a decent time, help out more around the house, pay more attention to her, etc.)
Instead, she wants time alone. She goes back to Dallas for a weekend, which turned into 4 days. Does this 3 weeks in a row, leaving me at the apartment 5 hours away wondering wtf is going on. All communication stops, email/txt only and not much at that, maybe once per weekend or so. Then I find out the last time she was supposedly in Dallas, that she was actually an hour north of me (Im in Little Rock,AR) in a hotel with another dude. I confront her, she claims she just wanted to get away, they did nothing but sit around and drink / go out to eat (yea fuggin right).
So here I am, heart broken, confused, hurt, pissed, angry, all of the above. Several things bother me here, why couldn't I convince her to stop taking the medication long enough to make SURE her feelings truly were HER feelings? Why would she choose this friggin idot over ME?! She told me that he KNEW she was married (which shows he has some outstanding morals) and then made HER pay for the fuckin hotel room! (LMAO) WTF!
Man it sucks, I never EVER EEEEEVVVVAAAARRRR would have thought she would do something like this, and I can't help but believe that damn medication is the cause of this shit. But now it's too late, even if she changed her mind, got off the pills, and decided she wanted to work on it, I cant. I will never trust her again, so I have to cut my losses and move on.
But this bothers me so much. I spent my whole life not wanting to get married, then I marry her, and I was happy that I did so. I spent my whole life not wanting kids, and that changed with her (allthough we never had any (thank god now!), we were trying.)
I just don't get it...
Instead, she wants time alone. She goes back to Dallas for a weekend, which turned into 4 days. Does this 3 weeks in a row, leaving me at the apartment 5 hours away wondering wtf is going on. All communication stops, email/txt only and not much at that, maybe once per weekend or so. Then I find out the last time she was supposedly in Dallas, that she was actually an hour north of me (Im in Little Rock,AR) in a hotel with another dude. I confront her, she claims she just wanted to get away, they did nothing but sit around and drink / go out to eat (yea fuggin right).
So here I am, heart broken, confused, hurt, pissed, angry, all of the above. Several things bother me here, why couldn't I convince her to stop taking the medication long enough to make SURE her feelings truly were HER feelings? Why would she choose this friggin idot over ME?! She told me that he KNEW she was married (which shows he has some outstanding morals) and then made HER pay for the fuckin hotel room! (LMAO) WTF!
Man it sucks, I never EVER EEEEEVVVVAAAARRRR would have thought she would do something like this, and I can't help but believe that damn medication is the cause of this shit. But now it's too late, even if she changed her mind, got off the pills, and decided she wanted to work on it, I cant. I will never trust her again, so I have to cut my losses and move on.
But this bothers me so much. I spent my whole life not wanting to get married, then I marry her, and I was happy that I did so. I spent my whole life not wanting kids, and that changed with her (allthough we never had any (thank god now!), we were trying.)
I just don't get it...
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