I decided it was time to issue a follow-up to this particular thread I started.
My birthday was August 8th, my party was awesome and a TON of folks in this thread made it out to enjoy a good evening! I couldn't have really asked for a more stellar night.
My birthday was also a turning point for me in regards to the beginning of this thread. I had to let go of a lot of 'auxillary' problems and the 8th was the day I decided it was time. I've found a therapist that's helped me break down the final bits of me and my mom's relationship. This has proven crucial to finally 'stepping out from under the umbrella' so to speak.
As for being proud, I am proud of what I have become after what I have endured. Being told that, "most people that see me have held onto these problems for years... Even decades... after their mom's death is startling since you've come in resolved to fix things" was beyond reassuring. I know my MOM would be proud of me. That means a lot. She always wanted to see me become a great man. I think I'm finally making progress that is worth smiling about.
I'm a member of my work's United Way Foundation, volunteering with animals/ASPCA, hell I'm taking dancing lessons LOL!
So to everyone else... Don't let menial personal roadblocks stand in the way of greatness. Swallow your pride, eat the hurt that comes with it and persevere. If those around you don't want to see you be a better person, chances are they see a lot of their own shortcomings in themselves. It's an amazingly pure way to weed out the stragglers and focus on the good parts in your life
My birthday was August 8th, my party was awesome and a TON of folks in this thread made it out to enjoy a good evening! I couldn't have really asked for a more stellar night.
My birthday was also a turning point for me in regards to the beginning of this thread. I had to let go of a lot of 'auxillary' problems and the 8th was the day I decided it was time. I've found a therapist that's helped me break down the final bits of me and my mom's relationship. This has proven crucial to finally 'stepping out from under the umbrella' so to speak.
As for being proud, I am proud of what I have become after what I have endured. Being told that, "most people that see me have held onto these problems for years... Even decades... after their mom's death is startling since you've come in resolved to fix things" was beyond reassuring. I know my MOM would be proud of me. That means a lot. She always wanted to see me become a great man. I think I'm finally making progress that is worth smiling about.
I'm a member of my work's United Way Foundation, volunteering with animals/ASPCA, hell I'm taking dancing lessons LOL!
So to everyone else... Don't let menial personal roadblocks stand in the way of greatness. Swallow your pride, eat the hurt that comes with it and persevere. If those around you don't want to see you be a better person, chances are they see a lot of their own shortcomings in themselves. It's an amazingly pure way to weed out the stragglers and focus on the good parts in your life
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