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Originally posted by idrivea4banger
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i feel that perhaps you and i both should place less emphasis on what people say towards each other on this website. yes, i've posted some drunk rantings that have seemed to have elicited a reaction from some. my recommendation is as follows; do not put much stock into the drunken rantings of a former medic that is currently dealing with PTSD and alcoholism. some you speak of it as an aberration being shocked and appalled. i find that to be quite amusing, glib, and pretentious to say the least. again, i envy you that have lived the status quo and are such hard unbreakable bad asses that are immune to consultation, despair, decline, or emotional bankruptcy. i myself was not afforded such luxury. and i'm not being disingenuous by saying such, not in the least. baptism by fire is something that i do not wish on others, as it inexorably manifest itself in drab contrast from television and real life. heroes exist in tv land. great people (not me) are those make tremendous sacrifices and are lucky and adept enough to survive rather precarious circumstances. filled with fear and apprehension, but conquering it to overcome adversity in all of it's forms. some people do this and end up with quite a few chinks in the armor.
and i have no more stories of EMS "glory" for you to disavow. it's something you can't appreciate in the first place, nor will i further abase myself by providing you more fodder for amusement.
as for your comments about me turning into a degenerate, i'm quite confident that i do not meet your definition as such. i don't live under a overpass in a box holding out signs begging for money. i sought out and educated myself in a second vocation and currently hold my own. i never chose to draw disability when i was qualified to do so. i was never a fucking leech on the system. i stand on my own 2 feet and i keep my head above water as a result of my own toil. stop being a dr. dave clone and make assumptions and draw unsubstantiated conclusions about someone you've never met. but, but,,,,,i'm an alcoholic. cry me a fucking river.
i can't imagine the temerity of ever intimating a "fall from grace" to my uncle (former vietnam vet in 101st airborne), who himself had struggled with substance abuse at times in his life due to shell shock. what arrogant sanctimonious pricks some of you are. actually, scratch that. just SMALL MINDED individuals.
anyways.....now back to real life i.e. job, family, friends, posting on a forum to kill some time, etc.. maybe you'll do the same. get back to your flawless and chaste existence.
have a great day.
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